My dear friend Amber and I met when she was hired as a 6th grade teacher. I had the privilege of witnessing that beautiful beach wedding where she became a military wife, a title that I had let go of only a few years prior. Amber is animated, hilariously funny, incredibly witty…her whole personality just screams FUN! Now that she’s across the pond I miss that so much, so I am very happy that she gets to be part of what we’re doing here at MADE.
“For I can do all things through Christ, who gives me strength.” ~ Philippians 4:13
“No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you.” ~Joshua 1:5
God blessed me with a second chance at love, and He hand selected an amazing man for me. (That’s another story, for another time.) So, with all confidence in God’s choice, I married Dan on a beautiful beach at our base in California, and instantly went from being a mom of two, to an Air Force wife and mom of four.
Psalm 127:3 says, “Children are a gift from the Lord; they are a reward from Him.” Well, I doubled my reward in just one day! My two girls and Dan’s two boys got along just like any brothers and sisters. Our “Brady” Bunch minus two were ages 5,6,7, and 8. Family life was new, exciting, and fun. Then a week after being married, my wonderful husband went TDY for three weeks! Suddenly, my insecurities swooped in like the Santa Ana winds. “I can barely handle two kids, and now I have four all by myself! And boys?!?! I don’t know anything about ‘mom’ing boys. Plus, I teach full time. I’m too overwhelmed. I miss my husband. I can’t do this!”
LIES! All lies! Well, except the missing my husband one. 😉 In 2 Corinthians 1:8-10, Paul encourages the church in Corinth about the comfort God offers us. Although I didn’t need rescuing from mortal danger, (Well, that’s debatable. Just kidding!) I did need to stop relying on myself and start relying on God. I needed reminding of my identity in Christ.
As a born-again believer and follower of Jesus Christ, I needed to seek Him; His guidance, wisdom, and strength. I was not alone. God and His power dwelled within me. Full reliance on God takes trust and faith. It requires you to get out of your own head and give control over to God. I am not so good at that. Because of that, it also takes lots of prayer! Am I an expert? Absolutely not! But, do you know what? Those three weeks went by rather quickly. Everyone got fed, and was kept alive. My class got taught, and my kids and I developed a routine that made me feel like I really accomplished something.
God showed me that I could do it. He had faith in me the whole time. I just needed faith in myself, or more importantly faith in who I am in Him! In Joshua 1:1-9, with Moses gone, God calls Joshua to take his place and lead the Israelites. I’m sure after being Moses’ assistant, Joshua had some doubt that he could do the job on his own. It’s only natural, right? Throughout those verses, God continually equips and encourages Joshua. He reminds Joshua to follow Moses’ instructions and not to deviate, all the while ensuring that He with be with Joshua every step of the way. I feel like that’s what God did for me, once I put my trust completely in Him.
Now our “Brady” Bunch are pushing 10, 11, 12, and 13 years of age, and the dynamics are changing. We live overseas, the kids miss their other parents, and hormones are out of control! And not just for the kids…hello, 40! It’s not always easy to ‘mom’ my four treasures from heaven. Ugh! Teenagers!!!! Although I don’t think the Santa Ana winds can quite reach me here in England, my insecurities continue to blow in from time to time. Each new phase of life brings new challenges, and with God’s help I’ll be ready for them.
“You are braver than you believe. Stronger than you seem. And smarter than you think.” ~Winnie the Pooh
This post was written by Amber Rodriguez especially for
the One Story Series at Made For Today